Nights like these...

Nights like these are a true contradiction. My mind floats up on a draft of warm excitement and then slams back down to the ground.

Up for the couple of hours where i knew where my cat was and i had my tea and i was watching anime.

Then down, and down, and down. In a single heartbeat. Plummeting out of my control. Thats always how it goes... a massive high followed by an intense low.

Its these nights when i have to do something that i hate. Think of one thing to continue for, one thing thats coming up, one thing that will bring one of those happy moments.

Next week is Amplify and we're going to see Tyler Oakley, and then Supernova and we're going to see Rubberninja. We have to be here for those. What i know will be happy moments.

Deep breaths, because this has to pass soon. We won't feel like this forever evem though every second seems like an eternity.

I want to be here to find out how this anime ends. It will be something unmissable. It has to be.