Coping

Its interesting isn't it, how people have different ways of dealing with difficult times? Like my mum whenever she gets stressed or upset she always exercises and cleans and bakes until our house is full of cake and biscuits.

I guess she likes to be doing something useful and maybe it helps to release stress? I don't know but it definetly says something about how different we are.

When i'm going through a hard time or things are changing alot. I like to lose myself in something that is completely seperate from whatevers going on. Whether its reading or playing video games or performing. As long as i can leave whatever is going on behind for a bit.

I guess i just like to distance myself from stress, like when i was in year five and i had a pretty bad year. I just had my nose in a book for pretty much the entire year and now i can't even remember any of it because i spent so much time erasing those memories.

I think performing is probably my favourite way even though it can create stress anyway i feel like i can manage that. Nothing can ever compare to the feeling of being on stage. In high school i know somedays i only made it through because i had Drama last period.

I know that my mum doesn't approve of some of the things i like to spend my time on but then again i know that personality wise we are pretty different.

My idea of a holiday would be hanging at the hotel maybe going to a few restraunts to try the food out and chill at the pool. If there is like a comic-con on that might be like my one not at the hotel thing.

Mum likes to see and do as much as possible, she hates sitting around and doing nothing it drives her mad.

I respect her opinions, or at least try not to get to defensive when she expresses them because i know that even though i have different opinions it doesn't mean that either of us are wrong.

She wants whats best for me and maybe she wants me to be more like her and do stuff.

I'm ok if she wants to try but really i know what makes me happy and i'm going to hold onto those things no matter what she thinks of them.

One day you know i'll be living my life and she won't be making decisions for me and then i can enjoy doing everything that i love. I bet the world won't go up in flames because i bought myself a PS4 for my 21st or something.